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Most of my entries that go into any great detail about my life are friends only.
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| A thought on rationalization and logic |
[Aug. 13th, 2009|03:42 am] |
I heard this on a show, and I thought it was a really good quote from David Sklansky.
There is a syndrome well known among doctors, but not too well known among the public. When somebody has a stroke and becomes paralyzed on one side of their body, they often deny it. Think about that. They cannot move one side of their body, and they will tell you and pass a polygraph that they are not paralyzed. If you ask them why they are not moving that arm, they will say they don't feel like it, but that they are not paralyzed.
I have always considered this fact to be extremely salient, because it shows the capacity to rationalize rather than face the unpleasant truth is astonishing in human beings. This is yet another reason why you must train yourself to be scientific and accept the results of logic or experiments. You cannot trust your own opinions. |
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| Out of a dream, out of the sky Into my heart, into my life |
[May. 13th, 2009|01:27 pm] |
I haven't been updating on a regular basis. A reoccurring theme you might have noticed! Speaking of reoccurring themes, I had one upon waking up this morning. I had another dream about my father. I haven't had a dream about him in a while (maybe a year or more).
The dream took place at a wedding. There were several people from past/present at the wedding. Some from high school, some people I have just met recently. I don't recall whose wedding it was. My dad was behind the counter working. He had passed away, but he had been revived and I remember feeling really glad knowing that he was really alive still. That part is always made relevant, that he was dead for a short period of time but somehow was revived after a period of time.
Eventually I go up and ask him what he would do differently upon coming back to this life. At this point in my dream, I woke up. Its funny how that always seems to work out that way. I guess that its his way of telling me hes here and answering my questions in an unconcious sort of way
In other news, I've been really busy lately. Just going out on the occasional date, went to Atlantic City with some friends for a few days (which was awesome), working out a lot, playing music with my bandmates/friends, went to a wedding recently. I'm down a total of 40 lbs since last week. I am at 18% bmi, so slightly underweight which is good. I still wanted to lose 8-10 lbs but we'll see how that goes. It feels like I'm putting more muscle on now that I'm not losing weight frequently for the last week or so.
I'm going to Florida in July with my godchild and Aunt/Uncle and cousins. I also want to go out to Vegas this year, but we'll see how that plays out. |
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[Mar. 22nd, 2009|06:43 pm] |
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So basically I had this prop bet from a few months ago with my roomate. We went to a Patriots game a few months back, and they had this field goal challenge at halftime. Basically they pick out like 3 random people to attempt a 20 yard field goal. I told Mike I could easily kick a 20 yard field goal. I used to have a really good kick when I played soccer in high school. He dismissed that had any indication about if I was capable of kicking a field goal. Also worth noting, I have never attempted a field goal up until the day we attempted the actual bet. Finally we got around to doing this a couple weeks ago. I talked him into getting 10 attempts, at even money. I honestly couldn't believe he was giving me this. Initially I believe we agreed on $400, but he refused to acknowledge that and was firm that it was $300. Anyways, here are the pictures and video. Needless to say of course I kicked it within the 10 attempts (I did it on the 4th attempt). I then attempted a 30 and 40 yard field goal and nailed those as well. I like free money!
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| First day with Personal Trainer |
[Feb. 25th, 2009|07:40 pm] |
I had a free day with a Personal Trainer from my Gym membership. I decided I might as well take advantage of it now, and maybe sign up for future workouts if it went well. The trainer (Eddy) was on the phone when I got there at 12. He told me to do some cardio before we started working out (since he was still on the phone). Normally I do cardio after I lift, it just seems logical to me. After jogging and using the elliptical for like 25 minutes we started the workout. He told me he would be introducing me to a circuit type of workout.
I had asked him to introduce me to some different exercises for my daily routine (chest, bicep, back, etc). Since I was doing chest today, he had me do inclined butterfly first. I normally do these, but he had the incline on somewhat of a 30 degree angle instead of the 45 degree angle I usually use. He also asked what weights I usually use. I told him 35s, and he grabs 45s and tells me that I am doing those instead today. OK. I did the first two sets ok, but I struggled with the last set since I don't normally use 45s. He had me do 10 push ups in between each set, and only gave me 30-45 seconds in between each set. Usually I wait 90-120 seconds in between sets. It felt a lot different from my usual set, but in a good way.
After that set he had me do this exercise I have never seen anyone do. Basically I got a mat and kneeled down in between the cable crossover machine (I think thats what they call it?). I then grabbed both grips and did an uppercut motion with both arms, towards my chest. I did 3 sets of these, doing 4 pullups in between on the pullup bar. It doesn't sound like much, but when you go from set to set with 30 seconds in between each set it definitely drains you.
I felt really sore the next day, in a good way. I haven't had that kind of workout since wrestling back in highschool. I decided to do a month of training with him, and possibly more depending. Essentially I want to be down to 15% body fat (or less), and benching 150% of my body weight sometime in the next few months. Realistically I think its doable. Still want to drop another 10 lbs and then I'll be satisfied for now. |
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| If thats moving up then I'm moving out |
[Feb. 21st, 2009|05:18 pm] |
Well, its been a solid week for me, which is fulfilling. I worked out 4 days this week. I still have a free training session from when I signed up for my account. I talked to a personal trainer this week and I'm going to be meeting him this Monday, so I'm excited for that. I've lost 20 lbs as of today since the first week of January. I didn't think that I still had a good metabolism, but I'm really happy with how I have been progressing so far. I'm down to like 21% body fat. Want to be at 16% or so by sometime next month.
On thursday I had the day off, so I went to this bar around the corner from my apartmet to their karaoke night. I ended up just going with my roomate Mike and his girlfriend Valerie. Its a small bar, but its a nice place overall.
I ended up singing Billy Joel, REM and some Pearl Jam for the three songs. I think Mike did a Doctor Dre song (lol), and Valerie did a spice girls song haha. Its funny because my roomate is terrible at singing, so it was funny seeing him go up and do it. When I went up to sing "losing my religion" there was this girl who was telling me "dont sing this song!" . I was like... hahaha you dont want me to sing this song? Why not? The song started and I didnt get to find out what she had against REM. I did go up to her later and we talked briefly. Her name was Gina, and she was a student at Northeastern up in Massachusetts. She was a really good looking girl, black hair about 5'2, nice figure. She lives in Warwick but only is home maybe once a month or so. We exchanged numbers and I'll probably call her next week.
Went to Uncle Sushi to pick up food for my sister in Westerly on Friday and to see my niece Isabella. Shes beautiful, but shes growing so fast! My brother in law came home from work, along with my step dad and my mother. We hung out for a few hours and I ended up going to Foxwoods to play some poker for a few hours. I'm going to post the poker in a seperate entry because its kind of long. |
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| She wrote her life upon a postcard |
[Feb. 16th, 2009|01:02 am] |
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I was reading through an OLD ENTRY about 5 years ago where I described a dream I had in elaborate detail. I honestly can remember the details and parts of that dream just reading through most of that entry. I realized as I have gotten older that I have not had the same vivid dreams that I used to have when I was younger. Heck, I don't even have dreams in any way shape or form it seems as of late. I had a dream last night, but prior to that it has been a drought.
I had a dream that my mother passed away last night. I talked to my mother today about it. She always used to call me (several times in my life) about this reoccurring dream she has where I die in a car accident. So anyways, it might seem weird to bring it up like that casually, but if you look at it in that perspective then its kind of different.
I was telling her the few details that I had remembered. She eventually responds "Oh. Was it at your dads grave?". I honestly could not remember any of the details. I was pretty sure it was because I remember the trees were familiar surrounding the funeral that was being held. I can't seem to remember many details in any dreams I have in the past year or two. It makes me feel a bit sad, because I used to have such vivid recollection of all the details upon waking up from my dreams. Not the case anymore.
Does anyone else feel that they have less vivid dreams as they grow older? Maybe its because I have lost contact with a lot of my friends who don't really bother to keep in touch anymore, or maybe because I'm kind of going through a funk in my life as of late. Probably that and some other things. As Kyle would say "Weird". |
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| I'm not happy and I'm not sad |
[Nov. 30th, 2008|04:28 am] |
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I haven't played at Cafe Zog in a while so I decided to play an acoustic set this Friday. I will probably go on at 6:00. Cafe Zog is located at 239 Wickenden St. in Providence. Let me know if you need directions or if you're up for coming out. |
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| Everything falls apart |
[Nov. 27th, 2008|05:03 pm] |
First thanksgiving I haven't spent with my family I believe, ever. It makes me realize how much I miss my grandmother and grandfather now that they have passed away, and how amazing dinner was with the family. I just called Ted's Montana grill because they're open and serving turkey, but they're all out. Kind of sad. I'm at work right now watching the Cowboys game. I have to work like 65 hours this week, tuesday thru sunday. Good game life.
I guess after you pass 25 everything kind of slowly degrades. I woke up yesterday and I felt sharp pains in my wrist remniscient of carpal tunnel. I had them a year or two ago, but it was only for a couple days so I was not concerned. It hurts to turn my steering wheel or attempt to play guitar. Typing a little but not as much as I would have imagined.
My car started dying yesterday also. I started it up and the first thing I realized was the speedometer was not working. I drove further down the road and my transmission started kicking as it shifted gears. My car would not go (what I'm guessing) above 35 miles per hour. So basically my 3 minute commute to work is very scary. I don't want to buy a new car because I really can't see adding more loans on top of all the other miscellaneous bills I have right now. I don't know. I can't see myself driving a trash used car for another 2 years either. It's a catch 22.
I was playing online today and I was playing 6 tables of .50 nl. I had $50+ on each table, when the server crashed on the site (RPMpoker). It was down for 30 minutes when it eventually came back up. I realized that all the tables had all the same players sitting out in the lobby. It was like the lobby was in a screenshot mode, because although you could see all the players sitting out, all of the tables were unaccessable. Eventually the tables closed out, but my account was not credited for all the money I had on the table. I checked an hour after and still missing like 300+ from my account balance. I emailed them. Its basically my word against theres. If they do not credit my account I will never play on this site again and will publicy out them.
Nothing seems to be working out for me. I was supposed to go out with this girl Ashley on friday and was asked to work last minute. So disgusted with this week. Hope all of you had a better thanksgiving! |
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[Oct. 21st, 2008|02:13 am] |
Oh yay the gas prices are way down again! That wouldn't have anything to do with elections being right around the corner now would it?
</irony> |
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| Saturday |
[Sep. 25th, 2008|04:04 am] |
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| | Dinosaur Jr. - We're not alone | ] | I cant wait to see Dinosaur Jr. / Meat Puppets / Built to Spill this Saturday in Boston. Such an amazing line up! I can't remember the last time I have been this excited about seeing a show. |
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| Vegas |
[Jun. 18th, 2008|08:48 pm] |
I'm going to be in Vegas for the World Series this year. Its my first time in Vegas. I've been wanting to go for years now. I should be more excited, but I'm pretty calm actually. I think after playing a few times live before I head out next Friday should help me get in the right state of mind.
I'm going to be staying at the Luxor from June 27th - July 8th. I'm really looking forward to seeing how good the games are in the midst of everything. It will be great to meet up with a bunch of my friends down there. One of them just got an place right off the strip, so it will be cool to check in w/ him. Not overly rolled for this trip, so hopefully I run decent for a change. |
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[May. 30th, 2008|12:47 am] |
I dont read my LJ friends updates for 1-2 months sometimes due to my hectic schedule. I have it set so I can view 20 entries back at a time per page. It only lets me go back 140 entries "earlier", I noticed. It does not give me an option to go back more than 140 friend posts earlier. Is there a way around this?
I'm sure there is, but im really lazy. So any help would be cool. |
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[May. 14th, 2008|09:28 pm] |
So I went down to pick up the guitar at the Providence Pawn shop today. It was in a hardshell case, which was not advertised in the auction. The person who was going to sell me the guitar over the counter went ahead and said the case comes with the auction (which was great). Then the head of the shop corrected him and said that it was not listed, and that it would cost $25 extra. Not a big deal, especially because most cases are 40-60 or more for a hardshell case.
I went into Noll Guitar to fix the action on the guitar I picked up. I have been in there probably 8-10 times, but I have never talked to the lutheran who helped me out today. When I showed him what I wanted fixed, he pretty much tore the guitar apart. I'm totally clueless when it comes to anything guitar related, sans a handful of basic things. He explained that it was a chinese made guitar, and the wood finish was really thin/cheap. I felt pretty stupid, but what are you going to do? I havent tried it out yet, maybe it will still sound decent?
The lutheran then went on and talked guitar dynamics with me for two+ hours straight. From 4:20 -6:40 (shop closes at 6:30). It was great learning everything in regards to guitars and their history. Explanation of how the intonation works (and how easily it can be altered), history of guitar strings and pickups, pretty much everything that I thought I had a clue about and didnt. I really wanted to get in and get out quickly, because I wanted to go to finish up some work before I went into work. He just kept pouring out everything about guitars you could possibly imagine. What am I supposed to do? Sorry, I dont want to listen to you anymore? He is the guy fixing my guitar, I cant tell him to stop talking. Especially because I will come back here again when I need something. The shop is great. There were literally no breaks in the talking either. I just held out. I cant believe my attention didnt shift throughout the whole thing, because I was exhausted.
I also got finally got my old Yamaha electric fixed up. He is fixing the action, the wiring, and I'm finally changing out the middle single coil pickup since it generally produces a loud humming sound. I ended up getting a DiMarzio HS2 pickup. Seems like a pretty versatile pickup from what I read. |
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| Something new |
[May. 13th, 2008|06:13 pm] |
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Well kind of new. I've been wanting to purchase a new electric guitar for some time now. The electric guitar I have been playing for several years now was a hand me down. It was given to me by my friend Harsha, who had the guitar in his basement as his old guitarist from his band had left it there for a couple years. I received it when I was 17 1/2. It still plays great, and eventually I will get new pickups put on.
There are a few guitars that I have been thinking about over the years. A clear wood finish telecaster. They just seem so beautiful, and theyre very versatile guitars. A 12 string guitar. I played my friends 12 string Ibanez electric a few years ago, and I've always wanted one for if I record some of the songs I have. Any lasty, a hollow body electric.
I was looking on ebay a couple days ago, and accidentally came upon an auction for a hollow body guitar. The vendor was located in Providence, at a pawn shop. So literally minutes from where I was located. I could avoid the extra shipping costs and just pick it up if I won. I ended up getting a Jay Turser (JT-133) hollow body guitar. I got it for $100, when they are generally selling from $200-250 or more online.


So yeah, I am pretty excited to add another guitar to my aresnal. I can't wait to pick it up tomorrow! |
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| My sister the Oracle |
[Apr. 24th, 2008|05:38 pm] |
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I posted a couple years ago about how many people had reoccurring dreams of me dying in a car accident. How enlightening. I think like 4-5 different people told me a few years ago that they had one (or more) dreams of this happening to me. My sister told me she had a dream about it this week. It kind of feels like the part in that movie Big Fish where everyone looks into the crystal ball and ultimately see's how they will pass away. Its quite annoying because everyone thinks I am going to die or fall asleep at the wheel while driving.
Piebald on Friday & Saturday was amazing. It was awesome that Corey could join me for Fidays show. My friend Joe came along on Saturday. I'm kind of sad because I always had a really good time at every single one of their shows I have been to. Thats probably 7-8 shows. I recorded a few of the songs on Saturday. I think the audio came out ok, but the video was really hard to see with everyones hands constantly in the air. I'll probably post a couple on youtube, theres already several videos from their last show up there. I was taking it from further back in the venue, so I was suprised I could get anything at all.
Crowded House is playing a couple shows up in Boston. I really want to see the one on Monday, May 5th. Maybe something will work out. I am jamming tomorrow with Kyle and Marc. We were supposed to have Jim play guitar with us, but since he blew us off on Monday and isnt returning my calls maybe we will just practice as a trio. I think it would be better with two guitarists if we gig out eventually, but I guess theres not much I can do besides call someone a million times.
Speaking of calling people repeatedly, why is it that the people in your life you would like to see/spend time with the most are the ones who continuously ignore your attempts to contact them? Its one of my biggest pet peeves that has developed later in my life. I feel so lost sometimes when I think about some of the people who just repeatedly ignore you. I guess you can't force that issue though. If people are meant to be there for long term in your life, they just will. You can't change that. I think I'm crazy sometimes, with the number of attempts I make. I dont know.
Newegg is finally shipping me a new replacement monitor, since the first one was defective. I am expecting my new computer by next week, also. Its my first new computer in probably 8 years. How crazy is that? Looking at buying a new sofa at Cardis, since they have 20% off sale going on. Its between these two. I'm a little worried it doesnt fit in our apartment (color wise). We have white walls and beige carpeting, so not sure if that works out. What do you think?
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| Piebald |
[Apr. 17th, 2008|11:43 pm] |
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I was told upon coming into work today that our company would be offering to send us to one of the states we recently aquired a contract in. Specifically, Oregon. It would be for one or possibly several weeks in Oregon. Essentially, we would be training some of the retailers on the newer technologies and terminals that are being initiated in the next few months.
I have a cousin who lives out in Oregon who I have not seen in years. It would be great to see him. I think I am going to be in Vegas around the time that this will be happening, unfortunately. So, kind of disappointing that I wont be able to take them up on this offer. Oh well.
I'm kind of torn. I thought that the Piebald shows I am going to were last weekend, and that I would be able to see Rustic Overtones play a reunion tour this friday in Providence. I am definitely excited to see Piebalds last couple farewell shows at the Middle East. Coincidentally, the last time I saw Piebald at the Middle East club was on St. Patricks day 4 years ago. The concert was amazing. My car got towed, and I had a final exam the next morning. Ah, memories. The pictures I took were from my really old 2 Megapixel Olympus camera.

Wow, the quality is so bad looking back on those. It makes my Canon Powershot look like a million dollar camera. I am looking forward to heading up to Boston with Corey today. Its so refreshing to have a weekend off after such a long time without one. |
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| New Monitor |
[Apr. 17th, 2008|01:45 am] |
So I kind of splurged a little. It is completely necessary, rest assured. I ordered this 28'' Viewsonic HD lcd monitor. It cost me a pretty penny, but its definitely worth it. I have been staring at both 15'' and 17'' CRT monitors for years now. The extreme change is pretty amazing. I don't know how I went so long looking at the older monitors I had.
The monitor doubles as an HDTV monitor, and a computer monitor. I can fit a ridiculous amount of tables on the 1900x1200 resolution on stars. Another reason I opted for this monitor are the number of different inputs on the back. I can play all my game systems on here, as it has pretty much everything you could want to plug in covered. 

The only problem is the new unit I received had defective speakers. The left speaker is completely dead, and makes a buzzing noise. I am returning it and should get a new unit in by next week. I can't wait for the new PC I had built to come in to test out this monitor. I'll have to post about the new computer when it comes in. |
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| Somerville Theatre |
[Apr. 5th, 2008|05:21 pm] |
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I called my friend Joe at 7:05 monday. I just got off the Back Bay stop. I was supposed to have gotten off my stop sooner, but there was a train stuck in between one of the stops that prohibited us from proceeding to the last stop. I haven't been in Boston in a few months. We were meeting up to see Eels last tour, a band that I first heard in 7th grade. I decided that I would take a taxi instead of trecking from t-stop to t-stop, since it was raining pretty heavily.
It was my first time in Somerville. I really liked the atmosphere of the Somerville Theatre. It was not too large, but it was big enough to fill just the right amount of people for an intimate concert experience. The show started out with a short film. It was a BBC documentary about Mark Everett's (E) quest to find out more about his late father. How his father was a genius in physics, and how he worked with the government in WWII and other events, and a little about E's childhood growing up.
After the short film, E and Chet came onto the stage. After a quick hello, they broke into song. Their chemistry is great, as bandmates. I was amazed at Chets ability to jump from instrument to instrument. This is probably the first time and the last time I will see someone play the musical saw in concert. Chet does an amazing job playing that thing by the way. The band played for about 2 hours and 15 minutes, including: Reading of fan mail, concert reviews, and two encores. The concert reviews and fan mail were hilarious. One of the better shows I have been to in a while. I ended up spending like $35 for two taxis and 13 dollars for train tickets. So it was really like a $65-70 concert ticket, but I had a great time regardless. You can't put a price on a fun night out with a great concert experience with an old friend. I dont have too many of those lately.
On a side note, I have an extra ticket to see Piebald's last tour. Its on April 11th (friday). Its at the Middle East in Cambridge if anyone wants to accompany me. Just let me know. Here was the set list from the show:
A Magic World It's a Motherfucker Strawberry Blonde Dirty Girl Cheater's Guide Souljacker Part I Elizabeth On The Bathroom Floor Climbing To The Moon My Beloved Monster I Like Birds Fan Mail / Reviews / The Chet Reading Jeannie's Diary The Sound of Fear The Chet Reading Last Stop: This Town I Want To Protect You Flyswatter Bus Stop Boxer Novocaine For The Soul Good Times, Bad Times Somebody Loves You Souljacker Part II ---------------------------- I'm Going To Stop Pretending That I Didn't Break Your Heart ---------------------------- P.S. You Rock My World |
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